Honest Tea and word that I forget

My experience with blogs is that they start off really well. And then fizzle out. I'm hoping that by posting twice in the same day I'm not dooming myself to the same process once again.

We shall see.

There's a word for that... self-something... the word predetermination keeps popping up too, but I know that's not it. I forget.

Anyway...

I'm here to talk about Honest Tea.

http://www.honesttea.com/tea/plastic/honey_green/

Today, I ran a 4k with my sister and two guys from church. At the end of the race, there was a booth for Honest Tea and they were giving out free bottles. I had one. It was quite delicious and natural - overall quite enjoyable.

I also adored the play on words. Honest Tea. Honesty. Very nice.

I'm not really here to talk about Honest Tea (despite its deliciousness). Nope. I'm here to talk about painful and yet lovely honesty.

And it's not like I'm an expert on honesty. So I guess I'm not going to talk about honesty. Mostly ponder and wonder.

Onder... I like words that have "onder" in them.

Yes, that is my random brain.

I've always wondered whether it was best to be completely honest and say things that could possibly bring pain or to hold those thoughts in. There must be a balance between the two. I really like being honest - it's liberating. It's also just plain difficult and something I struggle with excessively. Is holding everything in lying? Or is it just being smart? Sometimes it feels like the more honest you are with a person, the more they pull away. Or if they don't pull away immediately, the harder the fall when they do.

Many questions. Little answers. Story of my life.

There's a wonderful song my Kendall Payne

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8AKsWBr5mY

I love these lines:

"Child, don't close your eyes the truth contains much beauty
And though it scars your soul, it can heal the wounds it makes
You've been deceived to think the pain is to be dreaded
When you've got nothing left, it'll give more than it takes"

Or maybe we all just need to start drinking more Honest Tea and that will help.