an extraordinarily personal post
A lovely friend of mine shared this graphic with me a few months ago and it's been in my head ever since:
I've been struggling with depression. Two weeks ago, I spent a week in a hospital for my own safety and mental health.
And this is what it feels like.
Before the hospital stay, it felt like I was stranded in the middle of the ocean, drowning. Desperately trying to swim back to shore but using all my energy to just keep my head above the water. I'm doing better now. Some days I'm still just treading water. Not drowning, just treading. Some days I can even swim in the direction of dry land.
And maybe one day, I'll be able to keep on swimming.
I know, for sure, that one day, you will be swimming again. You will be stronger. But now There's a raging sea, right in front of me. Wants to pull me in, bring me to my knees. Let the waters rise, if you want them to. I will follow you. I will follow you. I will swim in the deep, Cuz' you'll be next to me. You're in the eye of the storm, and the calm of the sea, You're never out of reach.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 43:1 But now, this is what the Lord says—
he who created you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
PH
Hi Cousin Lois,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear. Thank you for your honesty and bravery. Reaching out is the first step in getting well. I had my first serious episode of depression at about your age. It took some time, but I recovered. I know you will, too. Don't lose hope. Thinking of you.
Barbara
Honey, I'm sorry to hear this. I hope you get better fast, and I do believe you will. Have faith in the doctors, stay safe, and keep faith that you will get better. Much love xxx
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