Lexicon - B

baby, n. (pl. -bies)

My body: HAVE BABIES!!!
Me: No.
My body: NOWWWWW!!!
Me: I said no. Maybe later.
My body: BABIESSSS!!!

balance, n. (see mental health)

Notes in my Bible, written near Ecclesiastes 7:15-18



"It's hard to find balance. In anything really. But balance is my goal, and now I'm trying to find the balance between blogging about the thoughts and life of an almost-adult living with depression while trying to save the world and actually living the life of an almost-adult living with depression while trying to save the world."

"I've been trying to find the balance between my fast world and slow world."

"I'm just not a fan of the all-consuming relationships that exclude every other person but the two in the relationship. It's not healthy. It's not natural. It might even lead to the end of the relationship because eventually you'll be placing every single expectation on that one person. And you'll crush them.

Family. Friends. Love.

Balance. Balance. Balance."

Balanced diet. Balanced sleep. Balanced relationships. Balanced wise mind and emotional mind.

Every experience, every sign, every feeling. Points back to balance.

banana, n.

I peel my bananas the "wrong" way and eat them green. Who eats ripe bananas?

bereavement, n.

Age 14:

DeathMortalityGriefLossBereavement
These are now words I know the definitions of.
PainSorrowAnger
I had not truly felt these emotions until now.
And never so many times have I tried to put the puzzle of my life back together only to find that there is still a piece missing.

Bible, n. (see books)

The most important book in my life. I've always been a sucker for stories about Love.

bird, n.

Winged feathery vertebrae; one of my favorite animals; pet name for a very special person.

blood, n. (see mental health)

Seeing my own blood is my addiction.

blue, adj.

The calmest color.

"Blue lips, blue veins, blue, the color of our planet from far, far away"

boat, n.

A terrifying vehicle of transportation. 0/10, would not recommend.

body image, n. (see acne, anorexia)

Ages 0-5: Unaware
Ages 6-9: I'm kind of weird looking; I look like an alien.
Ages 10-13: I'm fat. *takes a bite of another cookie*
Ages 14-16: i am the ugliest human to walk the face of the planet i need to lose weight so fat chubby ugly look at all these bumps and curves ew acne why am i so ugly better not eat for a few days i'm so sad better eat everything i can get my hands on until i feel sick why can't i throw up it's not fair i want to be anorexic i want to be beautiful i just want to be beautiful
Ages 17-19: Okay time to get better. I just feel fat, but I am not fat. Focus on what you know. but i'm so fat i don't want to eat i want to lose weight
Ages 20-21: I am a majestic female with curves and short hair and freckles and yeah I may feel fat somedays but this is my skin and I finally like it. Hopefully this lasts.

book, n.



brave, adj.

"Be brave dear one, be changed or be undone."

breathe, v.

The first step in every endeavor.

British, adj.

Am I British yet?

Brontë sisters, n. (see books, feminism)

The authors of two very influential books in my life: Jane Eyre and Wuthering Heights; my first introduction to feminism.

busty, adj. (see body image)

It's a curse with a some perks.